Its halfway throught February already??

So Im confused...I could have sworn it was only September...MAYBE it was December...but its NOT halfway through February! That means that in 2.5 - 3 months I will be delivering my baby. Im shocked that my wee one is 'viable', meaning that if she was delivered today that she would have a good chance at survival. Im still amazed everytime I feel her move inside my belly. Its kinda wierd still that Jason and my mom even can feel her moving from the outside! Its been a crazy journey and Im really realy ready to settle down. Hopefully our house rents here soon so we can move all the way in to Michele and Tristans house and get to relaxing!

And now, the best part...belly picture :)

26 Weeks

Time is flying!

23 weeks pregnant! I can feel my wee one move pretty much all the time now. She LOVES jalapenos (or maybe just I do and she is frantically trying to escape my belly) and she gets a kick out of my laying in bed reading...constantly kicking my kindle away. Jason has felt her move and is in awe at the whole process. Im shocked that in 4 months I will have an infant to depend on me all the time. Im going crazy thinking about all the different decisions we will have to make for our daughter to shape her into a functioning member of society. Im getting alot of different opinions on how I should handle the delivery and what kind of religion she should be. In my opinion, I will deliver her however she decides to arrive (preferable vaginally with tons of drugs haha) and with NO mention of "Gods gift" or "miracles". Jason and I have our own beliefs and are quite happy with them. We dont force our opinions on others and dont want to hear about how god gave us this child and we didnt do anything. Im pretty sure that WE planned on this baby, WE 'practiced' and Im going to be pushing her out of my vajayjay. Im VERY grateful that we have had an easy time getting pregnant, that nothing is wrong with the baby, so far, and I am speechless everyday thinking about how amazing this experience is. I take nothing for granted. We can raise our children spiritual and to be good, moral people who do good things, without bringing organized religion into it. Sorry if it all sounds so...harsh all of a sudden but Im just a little annoyed sometimes with the statements that I have been given regarding this subject. Ok, now the good stuff! Belly Picture :)

Slacking a bit :)

5 Weeks preggo, on our Honeymoon in Tahoe at the Embassy Suites! Im a fan of being able to see some definition in my tummy, not like I ever had a 6 pack, but still :)

9 weeks, just 4 weeks later and NO definition in my tummy. Pretty bummed about that haha!

11 weeks. A tiny bump, but its still 'fluffy' not hard or pregnant looking at all.

16 weeks, we find out there is a little girl in there :)

19 weeks, cant suck in my tummy at all, if you look close when Im wearing normal clothes I look like I have a small bump.

21 weeks. If I dont suck it in I actually look pregnant when out in public! It doesnt help that now I am always poking in my right ride, because thats where she is always pushing me!

Well, this last few months have been AMAZING! With the pregnancy and my new job and school...its just been a handful. I am proud to say that I am a TMCC graduate :) I got my AA in General Studies and now have to transfer up to UNR to make a 'Big Girl' decision and set a major. Im thinking Accounting or something in Computers...so who knows. Ive been a bit preoccupied with baking a baby!!

In baby news...Its a GIRL! Im so excited, its been such an easy pregnancy and its just now starting to feel real. I am 21 weeks and 4 days along. I have gained 8lbs so far and I think my tummy is growing like crazy, allthough the pictures Ive been taking are lieing to me. I just started feeling my little boxer kick and move around and its such a cool experience. Everyday the kicks and punches get a bit more powerful and more consistant. We are moving out of our cold cold house and in with Tristan and Michele to save money to buy a house. So the nursery is kinda on hold. We have so many hand-me-downs which have saved us so much! We got a travel system from Micheles sister and Bryces brother, a huge basinet from Aunt Joyce, 2 HUGE bags of clothes from Courtney from work and of course we have bought some stuff for our munchin ourselves. I dont want everything to look like pink threw up all over our daughter so Im trying to keep her wardrobe in white and pale pinks and of course some other fun things. I have some headbows and Ive bought some pink sparkly shoes too! Im going to attempt to upload some pictures now too...

And in other news...

We are pregnant!! I am still speechless about it all. We decided to 'practice' a couple weeks before the wedding and 4 days before the big day, we got a possitive :) I was so nervous, I have heard about some women close to me that it takes a long time to get pregnant. Sometimes you do everything right and it just doesnt take. I felt so out of control. I know about my cycle and I know when I ovulate, but what if that wasnt enough? Well- obviously I dont have to worry about that!! As of right now I am 11 weeks pregnant and feel good for the most part. I went through a few weeks where nothing I ate agreed with my tummy but for now its pretty happy with whatever I shove in my face. I am still tired pretty much all the time but I am starting to feel human again. I have not gained any weight yet but I can see the physical changes, my face, my hips and ass, my stomach! Its ok though, I just cant wait until I am obviously preggo and not just fat feeling...

Big Changes

Well, September 12th 2010 we walked the aisle :) It was the perfect day and the perfect vacation. It was very no fuss, no stress and I cant believe its over. We got our official certified copy of the marriage certificate today so I can change my name and it was so unreal- we got married!! There are so many great pictures and I have been so behind on posting anything. I hope to be able to put together our scrap book and the photo albums before Christmas...but who knows how long it will take :)

Its time!

Im so damn excited. Its been months of planning and almost 2 years worth of talking about. And its finally time. And whats so freaking cute is how excited Jason is too. I love this phase of our lives. The togetherness and the looking to the future. Us talking about future names and the way we will act. The fuzzy future that we have mapped out. A pro-soccer player and an amazing tennis star. A strict upbringing. My folks and his folks lives totally changed as they enter this new world. I know those closest to me are probaby sick of me talking about it but its just so...FUN! I know it may get stressfull and it may get depresssing but I dont care. Right now, right this moment. Im thrilled :) We are doing all this on purpose!

How life changes...

Im in shock. This week has been out of control. I started this week knowing that one of my co-workers was stabbed and his family was murdered about 2 blocks from my house. I then learned that my little cousins boyfriend was killed. The next day my dads best friend died. I go to work the next day and find out another co-workers uncle died and then another co-workers friend commited suicide. Im just so sick of everyone I know being sad. Can we be happy again?? Can we all just go through a day without someone we love passing away?? I just dont know how to handle my loved ones being mourned....I just dont know how to handle the people I love being so sad. I believe in fate and I believe in things happening for a reason. I just hope that the ones I love learn those reasons and learn those lessons in life before the sadness breaks them. I hope that someday soon, the sadness fades and that they realize that the lifestyle they lead is actually the cause of the sadness...Im just sad. I hope someday my loved ones realize that it is the decisions they make that cause the pain and heartache. It is a sad sad day...but it is avoidable...and someday soon...we must celebrate life once again. Its a sad day. And I feel guily for looking forward to my wedding. Knowing that I have the man of my dreams in my arms every night. I am planning a future for him and I and for our unborn children. We have a life together. And maybe, just maybe, our life will be ended early. But I will not take the time that we have already spent for granted...we have lived our lives to the fullest. I am so in love with our life. We are the reason.