Civilian drama

Wow, ok, so I took last week off from responsibility and all that other civilian stuff that one needs to worry about and I just got hit in the face with it today! I have 5 more days in my house, so I guess that means I need to start packing huh? I have to cancel my Comcast, PG&E, switch Jenn and my cell phone accounts into seperate accounts, actually move out of my apartment and into a storage place here in Vacaville. Then I wait until I get my official DD Form 214 so I can turn it into the VA to start my disability checks and so I can file for unemployment so I can make some money while Im lounging around waiting for school to start. I am kinda going nuts. I am going to be homeless for a while. Jason and I are waiting until his 28th birthday on May 17th to see if he is going into active duty. If he gets a job then I will just wait to start school until he gets a permentant base. If he doesnt then he will be moving with me to Hollywood to start my Xray tech program. Im kinda nervous to be moving to such a big area!

All of a sudden I feel like a grown up. Im in a 'big girl' relationship, my brother is getting married, my best friend is due Nov 19th. Its all so...adult. I am completely on my own here, even though I will be living on some couches for the summer. I have my responsibilities but now they seems so unimportant. Its like a lightbulb went off and I figured some things out...like Im not just waiting around anymore for my life to start. Its already here!

I have to get back to packing up my house, and getting it through my head that Im going to be 'Aunt' now :) Im so excited but also so scared at what may come...

6 Month-iversary

Ok, this format sucks. The picture of us in the brown was taken our first date. I guess we still dress alike LOL. I didnt notice until these two photos were up next to one another. The one in black was taken last weekend. Im amazed to have lasted 6 whole months with you, Jason. We are pretty much the same person. Stuborn, oppinionated, bull headed, moody. And somehow we compliment each other. We have the same sense of humor and can sit in a car for 9 hours and NOT get annoyed with each other. We laugh at the same things, we plan to raise kids the same way. We both get annoyed at stupid drivers (or people in general). We have our differences, and we deffinitally have our 'days' but we sit and talk about it and we get through it. We fit. Its just that simple. Im head over heels in love with you Jason. You taught me what love really was. Until recently I figured it was unattainable, to find someone else to 'put up' with me. But love is actually about trust and communication. I have let go of all my 'expectations' and have simply put my trust in you. No matter what, even if things dont work out, I am happy to feel this way, today. And thats enough. I dont need to prove to anyone else what our relationship is, its simply 'us'. I have my moments of jealousy, but in the end I trust you. I am content to be in your arms. Im content to spend this time of my life with you. And hopefully we will have tons more time together. Love, Megan.

Gotta love it

I wonder when some folks will realize that I dont live all that far away, and maybe I woud like to be included in some familty gatherings. But no biggy, I know the folks in my life that want me to be around. Like Rosie and Fig :)