Confusion

How do some people lives turn out so...wrong? How is it that in my little apartment complex there are so many ways of life! I hear my upstairs neighbors yelling all the time. There are 4 of them in that one bedroom. They drive a sooped up SUV and have a big flatscreen TV but their kids sleep on bunk beds in the only bedroom. The family yells and fights all the time. The neighbors next to me are 21 and have a 2 year old. The husband is outside smoking and on his phone all the time and I hardly ever see the wife. They are never together and never seem to be enjoying each other. Driving home today I had to pause for a bunch of gang banger to get out of the driveway because they were too busy yelling across the street to some other teenagers (there were about 8 cops out there too, Im nosy as hell and want to know WHATS GOING ON??) Where do these lives get so...mixed up? There is no way that these kids are happy with where they are in life? Do they even know that there is a whole other world out there? Are they even WANTING to know? Im not saying my life is perfect but I grew up with morals and rules. If the sign says 'No Parking' then I simply dont park there. If My buddy is passed out in the bushes then Im going to wake his drunk ass up and make sure he isnt sufficating himself with his own vomit.

Where do we go 'right' and where do we go 'wrong' growing up? How do I realize that some people just dont care that they never leave Vacaville? How do I realize that some people are simply going to drink their lives away because their wife died? How do I stop caring? What am I supposed to do...just sit back and live my cushy life (that I formed all by myself!) and dont worry about them and how they are throwing away the only life they will get? Im just so angry that some people will just sit back and allow these things to own thier lives.

You have a shitty job? QUIT!
You have bad parents that dont love you? MOVE OUT AND LIVE YOUR OWN LIFE
Your wife died 3 years ago and you are now an alcoholic? GROW UP! You are still alive!
You are 22 and think you know everything? DONT EVER COME BACK TO MY BAR, THERE IS NO HOPE ;) ( just kidding...kinda...I dont like you Jamie lol)

There is just so much out there that I think this town is slowing killing me. Everyone here is just kinda complacent. They are simply too lazy or too naive to think that life gets better. Life is out there, they just have to get off their asses, quit doing drugs, stop drinking your life away and GO FIND IT!!

Wow, ok...rant over :) Time for work, the job I hate that I sucked up and finished my 6 years of anyways...